Thursday, July 26, 2012

nesting in....

a glimpse into life with a newborn:

we made a nest in the living room; this is where we live lately.

em made this banner to greet us when we got home from the hospital. it's still hanging, so cheery:

addie stayed with us until saturday night. it was a dream to have her here. she kept everything tidy and pretty and helped with the baby and picked things up at the store that we might need. i cried when she left. i can't wait to return the favor for her come january!

pretty flowers everywhere you look:

our friends arranged a "meal train" for us. we have never eaten so well for so many days in a row!
first night, rebecca made us corn risotto, watermelon-tomato-basil salad, and a green salad, YUM.

monday night, chelsea brought us walnut taco wraps with all the fixins. apparently walnuts are good for breastfeeding women, and dang were they tasty! i need the recipe.

every day we are the recipients of flowers, treats, baby stuff; the bounty is unbelievable and our little nest fills up with goodies.
our friend scott brought a beautiful bottle of champagne, flowers and pastries:

scott and darin show off their daughters :)

another local gal, juniper, gets to meet lucy.

sylvan has quickly become a devoted new friend:

the mingles came bearing freshly homemade calzones on our first day home:

elsie, justin and zillion (and a tiny unborn one too!) brought veggie enchiladas sunday eve and met our girl:

and yay! this little family came all the way from utah to meet lucinda (okay they had lots of other california adventures as well, but meeting lucy was one of the highlights i think ;)


in fact my brothers and nick had gone on a backpacking trip on the john muir trail for five days...they arrived home in all their stinky and exhilarated glory. our nest was very exciting that day!

more cozy visits, amber and lucinda:

nana and lucinda:

the most exciting gift! when we arrived home from the hospital there was a big box waiting for us with a sacramento address i recognized. my heart soared! a package from nicole
i knew it would contain vintage delights, but never expected such unbelievable treasures!
check out the adorable card made by nicole's 12 year old daughter. i hope she's marketing these...
(it makes me cry it is so sweet)

we had soooo much fun going through each item, pulling it out with a gasp and a sigh of utter cuteness overload.

a peek-a-boo at the amazing girly vintage heaven.

prettiest little-50s-girl dress ever. in the world, period.

 one night there was a crazy thunderstorm with lightning. a cool wind blew the curtains billowing in and the windchimes sang in the dark. lucinda and i stayed awake to listen to the storm and watch the sky light up  pale violet with each crash. billy and the other cats sat in the window in the strange light. darin played his guitar and the rare summer rain washed our garden and our dry hills clean. we were cool and peaceful in our nest all night long.

 our cats are getting used to the new presence. no one can help liking her :)

most of all, we are just utterly smitten. no one could have really prepared me for these first few days and weeks with our newborn. it is the most unique and special time of our lives and i am cherishing every moment. now....back to soak up that sweet baby girl of mine!

Monday, July 23, 2012

pretty in pink

as much as we wanted to try to avoid too much pink with our little baby girl,
sometimes it just happens....

here's me in my pink slip nightie (the only thing i can comfortably sleep and breastfeed in as of late), with Lucy in her pink gingham sundress from Addie, on her pink boppy lounger from her uncle dave and aunt ashley, and with her homemade pink blanket from my mom (nana). 
my rosy little cherry blossom!

addie and i took her outside for a photo shoot in her big vintage bonnet. 
lucinda on friday at four days old:

darin's favorite place to be in the whole wide world:

just beaming out pink moonbeams from the spring household!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Lucinda Violet

Born July 17, 2012
Lucinda Violet Spring
We are in heaven with our little girl.
She is in my arms right now as I type. 
Sorry I haven't checked in sooner...
(but boy do i have a story for you)
darin and i are under a spell.

i want to work on my whole birth story over the next week or so. i want to remember every detail possible. but for now i will just say this: after my water breaking at home in the wee hours, laboring 21 beautiful hours naturally, having the most amazing experience together, determined to remain peaceful as possible, we found out at that late date, in our hospital room at 12:30 a.m. the next night that our baby was  breech and that because i was in such advanced labor i would need an immediate emergency c-section. yes, i faced my worst nightmare. my friends it was harrowing for me and i am still processing the grief that such a change in plans gives my heart. but i will tell you there is nothing more amazing than the love i feel for this tiny soul in my care. i can hardly write or talk about any of this without weeping. my story is ultimately our story as a family and i am always going to come to it with the peace and grace of that love.

oh, and breastfeeding is going beautifully!

i hope you are all well out there loves, and i will be back with more photos of our tiny beloved!

Friday, July 13, 2012

River Day and Waiting in the Sun....

The day before my due date, Darin and I hiked down to the river. 
it was the hottest day of a spree of days over a hundred degrees. 
that cold river water never felt so good!

oh american river, you flow and fill with secrets, scraps, time forgotten....
wood and bone, rock and sand and dragonfly.
our bodies, even the gentle quiet movements of our babies inside.

on a day like this, when you are waiting for your baby, every tiny detail seems of great portent. little love letters from the gods of the river;
medicine from the ancient trees and shade and birds.

we encountered a sleek and pretty friend. she did tricks for us in the tree.

refreshed, our water spirits glowing... darin skipped rocks, i read, we felt our baby move and roll inside my crazy belly over and over. i think she's ready to see this all with her own eyes. to try out the river with her own tiny feet. to snuggle in our arms and feel our skin and kisses. to taste the sun.

we had dinner at our favorite little river shack, Marcos, of the brick-oven amazing pesto-potato pizza.

art's cousin victoria works there. she is a doll, so excited to see us and sun-glowy and happy. is july 13, my "due date" which i have tried very hard NOT to be attached to, but it feels like an important day nonetheless.
i am feeling great. i take naps every afternoon, and float in water at least once a day, and do laundry and love my cats, and walk, and watch movies with darin, and eat eat eat!
so far i have bits of cramps and lower back pain and twinges and tightenings, but nothing major.
so that's about it. i might go out tonight, i might not. i might dance to live music to get this baby moving, but then again i might just sleep :)
wishing you all a fabulous weekend!

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

guess who's gonna be a mom with me?!

i've been waiting to announce this until she was ready....
my sister is pregnant too!!!
you can read ade's epic blog post catching up the last year or so of her life and including this incredible news.
she is due in mid january so our babies are going to be exactly six months apart in age.
as you probably know, we are only fourteen months apart and best friends. we grew up really super close, almost like twins, and always dreamed of having babies together.
it started to seem like kind of a dim possibility over these last few years; well guess what....
dreams come true!

this is the only photo i have of us being pregnant together so far. 
it was taken at my baby shower with our other two friends who are pregnant too.

of course, there's me, due right NOW, mary is due in october, elsie is due right after christmas, and addie is due in january.
we've got a little baby boom going on round here :)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

39 weeks going strong

one week before my due date. 
it is a friday and i have been off work for a week and my belly is so massive that sometimes it feels like i will topple over.

here is how i spend my days:
float in my pool
water the garden and yard
clean up every little detail
think of new things that still need taking care of around the house.

i've been social a lot too. tonight i went to rebecca's birthday party and stayed till almost 11:30....woo hoo late night for me! both rebecca and sylvan finally got to feel the baby move as she wriggled her little rump inside me. i had the best carrot cake in the whole wide world, made from scratch by doniella, and even sipped a bit of carolann's homemade sangria.

i wore shorts under my dress so everyone could see my real belly.
it's more fun that way.

the days are warm but i like them just fine that way. 
hearing doniella and carolann talk about wearing jackets in the city made me soooo grateful for my sundresses-at-night, dry-grass-all-day, riverside, poolside, golden hot summer moon foothill town.
and my july pregnancy even!

even if i do waddle like a sweaty duck and practically fall down while trying to get out of my pool these days.
i also get way cranky in traffic and find myself just slightly more irritable toward everyday annoyances, like someone at the thrift store standing too close to me or staring at me or something like that.

i am up and down and all around, a whirlwind of energy sometimes and then a total slug.
a positive glowing happy mama sometimes and sometimes a grumpy and intolerant old lady!

still loving on my kitties bigtime and concerned about upsetting routines with them when baby comes.
billy loves to snuggle me at night. he definitely thinks of himself as my baby.  now what am i going to do about that? do any of you have pets who sleep in your bedroom with your baby too?

i was feeling jolly and wild today, like some big rounded green summer sprite.
maybe a little fairy dance will bring baby out into the sunlight.

our big moment approaches....thank you all for being so absolutely sweet, supportive, helpful and wise through my pregnancy here in blogland!