Lucinda Violet
Born July 17, 2012
Lucinda Violet Spring
We are in heaven with our little girl.
She is in my arms right now as I type.
Sorry I haven't checked in sooner...
(but boy do i have a story for you)
darin and i are under a spell.
i want to work on my whole birth story over the next week or so. i want to remember every detail possible. but for now i will just say this: after my water breaking at home in the wee hours, laboring 21 beautiful hours naturally, having the most amazing experience together, determined to remain peaceful as possible, we found out at that late date, in our hospital room at 12:30 a.m. the next night that our baby was breech and that because i was in such advanced labor i would need an immediate emergency c-section. yes, i faced my worst nightmare. my friends it was harrowing for me and i am still processing the grief that such a change in plans gives my heart. but i will tell you there is nothing more amazing than the love i feel for this tiny soul in my care. i can hardly write or talk about any of this without weeping. my story is ultimately our story as a family and i am always going to come to it with the peace and grace of that love.
oh, and breastfeeding is going beautifully!
oh, and breastfeeding is going beautifully!
i hope you are all well out there loves, and i will be back with more photos of our tiny beloved!
Comments
Love from Oklahoma!
Anna
your brief story reminds me of how wild birthing is...we make plans and have hopes, and then we step into the storm and realize we are in a creative galaxy unto itself...i don't know any women who had the birth that they "wanted" or expected. but from what you shared i know you went into this with heart and arms wide open, ready to let it just BE, and while i am so so so so so sorry that you had to face your worst fear and that it has grieved your heart, the love and openness you are already speaking about it with now tells of the depth of your spirit and also communicates that your feet are well on the path to healing and home.
i am so tickled for you. i want to just sit and gaze at your baby and hear you tell me this story from beginning to end...let it take five hours and 8 cups of tea. and all that really means is that there is a mama heart in san francisco that cares about you. from my humble place, i offer a welcome into motherhood. from my tiny family to yours...congratulations and SO. MUCH. LOVE.
love to you and your new little family from across the seas
About the birth... When you're ready to talk make sure you do. The same thing happened to me with arlo I was forced into an emergency c section and even worse I had to have a general anaesthetic as they tried over 4 times to place the spinal block and couldn't.. My tissues were all swollen up from the preeclampsia. I never even got to feel one contraction, nor hold my babe when he was born nor see him enter this world. When I awoke from the "operation" as I call it because it wasn't a birth... I was in recovery being dosed up on morphine, wheeled into my room and when I asked to see him I was told I couldn't because I couldn't sit up and he was in special care nursery... I didn't see him for 4 hours! All of this still breaks my heart as I type but I've had almost 6 months now to deal with the grief of my birth story and have been to therapy & birth healing, everything I have tried it because I didn't want it to get me down... I wanted to be able to fully appreciate this beautiful little life I had been given, and somehow make peace with how he made it into the world, that his spirit and my spirit will be okay from it. And it does get better with time!
Sending you lots of love across the ocean, glad to hear the breastfeeding is going splendidly, it really is the best to feed your child hey? Can't wait to hear more on little Lucinda xox
P.s. the red gingham is adorable
I am so happy for the three of you and I look forward to your birth story. I too planned a lovely natural birth and hired the doula and all and still ended up have a c-section in the end. It was a painful loss but also a beuatiful beginning for our family.
Enjoy EVERY minute of this newness!
Cheers!
congratulations, to you both.
xxo
J
You and your family are loved by so many, adored by so many. However she got here, how long and hard the journey, Lucy is all that matters now. I'm so happy for you, enjoy your bliss.
Love you all!
much love,
anne
On Monday we made it up to Crater Lake. I wasn't getting phone service and hadn't heard word, but felt compelled to send you a little silent blessing while standing at the base of a breathtaking waterfall, Vidae Falls.
With the rushing water cascading down the rocky cliff leaving a trail of lush green life in its path, it felt quite fitting. This would have been around 4:30 pm which means you were in labor!
Late Tuesday morning while we were on the road I was able to get a phone signal and received Mary's texts. I was so glad to hear that Lucy had arrived and you were all doing well!
So much love to you all! Enjoy these new moments together :)
p.s. It turns out Vidae Falls is spring fed <3
I have nothing to say save that I hope you and Darin are basking in these new moment (which I know you are!).
xoxo
So happy she is healthy and you are okay as well. When my sister had her baby she wanted it to be at home, but things changed for her at the last minute and she ended up in the hospital. Life is what happens when we are making plans... oh so true sometimes.
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to my next visit to pville so I can meet Lucinda Violet. Oh that name is so beautiful...
love you Heather! You are a goddess and for sure a nurturing loving mama! Happy birthday Lucinda!
-mo
xo Lilly
Dream birth.....I KNOW EXACTLY HOW THAT IS. I found myself crying about the c-section a month later, two months later but not anymore.
Isn't it a great gift that after that, breastfeeding is easy!!!! It eclipsed a lot!
I am happy breastfeeding is going so smoothly for you. It goes smoothly for us with use of a nipple shield. She isn't taking to my nipple to well, hopefully with time she won't be so lazy :p
I am happy to see you soaking up every precious moment. xoxo