36 weeks - tarry here with me awhile
now i understand the expression "big as a house." i AM a house, for this little baby who rolls and shrugs and shimmies and shakes inside me!
at 36 weeks i am still feeling great. i feel lucky and joyous to be able to report that.
i love love love being pregnant. my sturdy legs feel so capable carrying me around. my round face and arms don't bother me because they are signs of nice supportive weight (translate: strength and energy) to help me birth and mother this child (my friend rebecca says it is healthier and more helpful all along to gain a little extra weight rather than restricted weight gain). the muscles in my back are holding strong, i sleep well and so cozy at night with my two fans and body pillow, and i get lots done all day long. i feel like this baby inside is giving me the best productive energy in the world and i am soaking it up like my bright california sunshine.
now people look at me differently.
"you must be so hot," they say...or "wow, you're really out there." (that one came from an older gent, it was kind of awkward)
"i bet you are READY!"
but honestly, i haven't had that desperately-ready-to-get-this-baby-out-of-me miserable kind of feeling at all.
it's a little less than a month to my due date, july 13, which i know is just a number and can be fairly arbitrary, but i feel like it is just about right.
i can't believe how the time has flown. now it is june, perhaps my favorite month of the year, and our tiny garden is growing prettily in the sun, and our clothes hang on the line, and i put up my little pool and the grass is green. last year i wrote about hildegarde of bingen's idea of the greening life....i couldn't feel more in tune with that than now.
my secret to health, happiness, and a wonderful pregnancy?
WATER. (have i said this before? i feel like a broken record)
it is my secret to life. i have my glass jar of ice water with me at every moment. hydration, hydration, hydration! it got me through my cold, it gets me through the night, it puts a skip in my step.
today it is going to be over 100 degrees here.
i woke up darin early (i get up early every day now! early for me that is, between 7-8 a.m...) and we went on a wild goose chase seeking garage sales. no major scores but it was kinda fun and we stopped for bagels on the way home.
yesterday i organized and cleaned out back patio and got it ready for outdoor life.
i plan on being in the backyard with my new baby all summer long. there is a hammock and a picnic table and my pool; there are shady spots for morning coffee and sunny spots for sunbathing, and i put up new twinkly lights along the patio and plan to fill the brick planter boxes with herbs.
they say couples should spend the last month doing things you love that will be more difficult to do once the baby comes. we went to the movies the other night and we've been going out on dates and out to eat.
so my question is:
mamas out there, any recommendations on things we should do now that we won't be able to do for a while?
i know everyone says your whole life changes with a newborn, and it is soooo hard, but could you be specific? what is the hardest thing? what is the priority? what do you wish you did more?
i want to plan as well as possible for our early days together.
again, i am sorry if this feels like a "pregnancy" blog now, lately especially. i have to remind myself to talk about normal things even with darin, to watch a documentary or discuss his latest conspiracy theory ;)
this baby and pregnancy experience are constantly forefront in my mind.
i am deliriously happy with it all and i send tons of love and support out to other pregnant mamas right now!
dress: free from rebecca at a clothing exchange years ago
necklace: star card tarot made by darin
flip flops: thrifted
bump: handmade by darin and i :) (haha i'm such a cheeseball!)